Paris Jackson Details Suicide Attempts, Alleged Abuse at Treatment Center & Turning to Electroconvulsive Therapy | Just Jared - Celebrity News and Gossip

Paris Jackson is getting honest about her mental health.

The 28-year-old daughter of the late Michael Jackson spoke out in an appearance on the On Purpose with Jay Shetty podcast, and the episode was just released this week.

During the appearance, Paris spoke about her first suicide attempt at 15 after she started using substances and dealing with “untreated mental illness.” She was later sent to a treatment center in Utah by her family per the guidance of Child Protective Services.

“I definitely left with more PTSD than I went in there with. [I] had nightmares for two or three years about going back… I was one of the lucky ones where we didn’t experience physical or sexual abuse, but there was definitely a lot of psychological, emotional, spiritual abuse that happened there,” she revealed, including pitting the clients against each other, becoming distrustful of roommates and therapists, being “zombied out” on medicine and getting consequences.

“You gotta learn how to kinda play the game if you wanna get out,” she said.

Paris said she tried to commit suicide again after going cold turkey from heroin, and was still using cocaine and weed while drinking.

She said it led to “a suicide attempt that didn’t work,” taking a bottle of benzos (prescription drugs that calm your central nervous system) with “an entire bottle of vodka. I feel like that should have worked.”

“That was one of the first attempts where I’m like, ‘F—, it didn’t work,'” she recalled before saying she hit “a proper rock bottom” weeks later.

“For a long time, [I] went back and forth between this place of ‘I can’t be here anymore,’ and ‘Well, it’s not my time, so I’m stuck here.’ And I can try all of these methods, but they’re still not gonna work,” she recalled, adding that she considered hanging as an option.

“I’m gonna end up, like, kind of paralyzed. I would just think of all of these ideas and then how it would go wrong, and I’m like, ‘I’m stuck here,'” she said.

Ultimately, she decided to make the most of her life in the end.

“The good or the bad, the light and the heavy, these are all things that are part of the experience, and I’m here to experience the entire spectrum. I want all the feelings, ‘cause that’s what I’m taking with me when I leave,” she said.

After five years of going sober, she said she still faced suicidal thoughts, and turned to electroconvulsive therapy.

“I think happiness is temporary. I think pain is temporary. And so knowing that I may get sad again, and I may go through a dark time again, hopefully will be bringing the information with me this time of ‘there is a way out. You’ve done it before. You will do it again,'” she reflected. Watch above.

If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-TALK (8255), visit 988Lifeline.org, or text the Crisis Text Line at 741741.

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